so i'm still in the same depressive episode. it's kinda the norm now. i'm just existing. some days are good. some days are bad. some days are really bad. some days are really good. therapy's going good. got validation on how it's normal for some people to live daily with a suicidal level not at 0. typically those who were suicidal at a young age, so the brain's wired like that and it's hard to break that wiring. my norm is around a 3. i did get up to around a 6 for a bit. but i'm back at my norm. in June i got to see Stray Kids live. it was amazing. i took over 8000 pictures and videos. i cried during Cinema, which was expected. i screamed "fuck" so many times. outside of the actual venue (Truist Park was a shit show and did not prepare nor handle the crowd properly), it was so much fun. i'd definitely go again. just hopefully they'll chose a different venue. of all the pictures i took, this is my favorite. which is odd in and of i...
